I was recently pondering the nature of dreams and setting intentions. There are times in my life when I thoroughly believe in myself, feel enthusiastic about my dreams and confident in my intentions. Then there are the times, when I don’t. I feel hopeless and distraught, often full of worry about how things will work out and certainly don’t believe in myself. It was one of those times.
Those are the times when I forget how incredible my life is. Consumed by my small mind and taking for granted all that I have. This time, something shifted. A state of grace perhaps, I was able to turn toward my hearts gratitude for this incredible life that I actually do have
In that small moment of grace and humility I saw that I am actually the living legacy of my great grandmothers dream. I could feel the line of energy going all the way back from me here in California in 2014 to her in Russia somewhere, in 1906.
I saw my great-grandmother sending her young daughter and son off to the US from Russia. She sent them away alone, on a boat, with a vision.
How strong must that vision have been for a mother to be sending her children so very far away without any way of knowing what would happen to them. No cell phones, no Skype, no email. Just hope, faith and a very strong intention for them to have a better life than the one she saw for them in Russia.
My great grandmother had no idea what life was really like in NYC or what would happen to her children once they got there. She had no idea if they would even make it.
She must have had an unbelievably strong intention and dream because here I am. The “better” life that she wanted for her children came to be and beyond her wildest imaginings. I am simply her dream coming true.
The things that I have so much gratitude for and that at times I take for granted are the things of her dreaming.
The incredible abundance, beauty, freedom, health, safety and grace of my life I owe to my great grandmothers dreaming and the strength of her intention.
I owe it to her to believe in myself and my capacities, for I am the living proof of her power.